I’m Hugo
And there it is again, the fear, sudden and unexpected, like a slap in the face. Or was it the hard kicks in my stomach area that hurt so much? That terrible memory is still in my head, so serious, so distressing. Even after more than 2 years, I still don’t trust anyone 100%, I don’t even think 50%. And even though I know that everyone here loves me, I cower when I get the leash, even though I’m so happy to get out of my “prison”, I still can’t manage to show my joy.
My past keeps catching up with me. You have no idea how bad other two-legged friends were to me. One step forward, 2 steps back.
About Hugo
Walking the dog, where I walk obediently, has become a little less of a stress race, but I’m still so upset inside that I always have diarrhea. But only outside, when walking the dog. My nervousness, my constant running after my tail, a tick, just to show joy or to cover up my fear. Or just both. I also have a constant skin allergy, as the saying goes – due to psychological reasons.
Cuddling is not on my agenda, why – someone could get too close to me, yes, and hurt me again. There are 2-3, 2-legged ones, so I have fewer concerns about that. Even start my food when it’s served to me. I now take treats from many different hands, but I’m not calm inside.
When strangers come, I hide in the farthest corner. I don’t know curiosity because if I showed it, I got beaten again, so it’s best to keep it very small so that no bad person catches me, let alone see me.
When the vet comes, he can examine me from a distance or I have to be anesthetized. Isn’t that cruel, just fear, I tried to defend myself – from the possible danger – and caught – no, not bitten!
I want to be adopted, unfortunately it’s not really feasible for me unless a miracle happens and someone comes to visit me every day, for weeks or even months, to regain trust in humanity. Than I can go into a home with them.
Everyone here hopes for the song “Miracles happen – I saw it”, the miracle for me Hugo, one day it will happen, I wish it so much
Your Hugo
